Learning About Learning //
After a handful of conversations this weekend about education and learning I have been inspired to do some more research. My heart always stirs on the topic of education and learning. So this morning I am reading up on Charlotte Mason, looking back on the program I went through in Elementary school, and searching for the audio version of the book ‘Deschooling Society’ by Ivan Illich. I feel like this is the beginning of me being intentional with developing my views on school, education, learning, teaching and where I stand in each of these.
Please, let me know if you have any suggestions or any references for me!
Every so often I get my perspective put in check. There is a moment where I am able to grab hold of the spinning ground and for a split second the wheels in my mind halt and all is quiet. In this moment I see myself for who I am; spiritually, physically and geographically. With peace in my spirit I am able to look at myself and understand.
Understand that the place I am in is right where I am supposed to be; single, a student, the simple life I live and being in San Luis Obispo. I then look to the future and all the things I have been hoping, wishing and praying for; the boy that I will someday meet, the places I will someday visit, the business I will someday start, the place I will someday plant my roots in, the mother I will someday be… and I understand deep within me that the bridge to get me there can only be built by the Lords hands.
Which place is my perspective focused on? Is it fixed upon the right here, right now or is it searching for the next stone to use to build the bridge towards reaching this future? If its the first, when great! I am right where I am supposed to be—trusting in where God plants my steps. If it is the second, then no wonder I am so anxious and worried! How can I figure out the future on my own when I don’t even know if I will live to see the next day?
I only wish I could have this perspective constantly. But I know I will get wrapped up in all the “what if’s”, “if only’s”, and so on and so forth. I will only see what is around me and start to compare myself to the people I see around me and start to ask why my life doesn’t look like theirs. I will get caught up in my clothes, makeup, hair and homework. I will become dissatisfied with the life God has given me…
Help keep my perspective fixed on having faith in You. Faith that you guide and lead my life in ways I don’t understand. Faith that you are a good God. Faith that you will never give up on me. Thank you for your love and mercy. I need you Abba to help me finish this semester with my vision fixed upon you. I love you! Show me how to love you so much more.